sometimes reality is too complex for oral communication.

Do it to him before he does it to you.

And lessons learned.

I ain't never gonna be the same again.

This is a clip from the new Bob Dylan movie. It stars Cate Blanchett as Bob Dylan and David Cross as Allen Ginsberg.

I'm not sure what I think about it yet.

Dead Ends. Nasty Habits.

Top 5 Reasons Why I Don't Go Out Anymore-

1. Isolation Equals Best Friend

I've kind of doing this thing that I do every time I go away. Even for a short time. Where when I get back I stay home, watch my favorite movies over & over again till I'm so sick of them, and re-read a favorite book till I feel like going out again. I hang out with my dad a lot, till I think he's sick of my neurosis. And Give my sister lots of advice on things I know absolutely nothing about.

2. Repeat Conversations & Awkward Banter

I really hate having the same conversation you had with someone the last time you saw them. Because you & this person don't see or speak to each other often you both have to ask each other the same mundane questions over again. "Oh hey, you still doing that thing you were doing last time i talked to you?" Yeah. "How's so-n-so?" Fine! Ahhhh. I'm not like this always. I just really don't have the Patience for it these days.

3. Disappointment

Whenever I am home & I have plans to go out I tend to get excited & have high expectations for the night, to see people, drink beer, & the like. Then I usually go home disappointed in the people I saw conversations I had, I probably said or did something awful & stupid (see "Impulsive") & wake up somewhere with a hang over. That's not fun for me & it's generally disappointing.

4. Immaculate Sleeping Schedule

I have just finally after what seems like a life long struggle, perfected my sleeping schedule! I go to sleep at 10 & wake up at 8 30. I fucking love it. It's great! & I don't want to fuck it up.

5. Impulsive

As of late I've had a tendency to make bad decisions out of boredom & my emotional state. So In order not to fuck up &/or do anything I will surely regret, I've put myself in a cage for awhile. I'm not saying I'm totally irresponsible & out of control, I'm just really bored.


PS. A girl left her bike at my house a few nights ago & I don't remember her name & I don't think I know any of her friends so if you were there & you know who she is let me know so she can get her bike since I'm not at my house at normal hours. Thanks.